Thursday, July 13, 2006
Identity Crisis Averted?
I think I've found the solution to my work related problem. I feel the problem isn't with the actual company, but rather the underlying task. Software engineering is alright at best, but it isn't exactly a job that I derive a considerable amount of satisfaction from. After really considering whether or not I should interview with another company and consider a job change I came to the realization that I'm most likely trading a good position and good pay for more of the same shit at a different location.
What to do? I'm going to downgrade my position back to intern and resume classes this fall. I'm two or three classes away from a degree in math. I'd like to finish that up and complete the paperwork for my computer science degree. Also, I plan on taking a bunch of undergraduate courses in psychology.
Psychology has been a field I've kept in the back of my mind for the last year and a half after taking psych 101 and social psych. Various conversations recently with Heidi and exploration of my own personality tell me I'm potentially entering the wrong field with computer science. I rock at it, but I'm starting to think the reason I enjoy it so much is simply for the abstract problem solving it requires to become proficient at it. The actual application of the education is drearily boring and research in this field requires a Ph.D. I think research might be fun, but I'm not 100% sure it would be satisfying.
For years people have told me I have a sense of wisdom beyond my age and an emotional capacity that can be mystifying. Maybe I should be pursuing something that let's me engage in the humanizing aspects of society that I thrive on in my personal life. This is going to require some personal exploration and some coursework to see if this might be for me. All I know is that planning this out and making it work has been the happiest I've felt about the short-range future of my work oriented life in a while. Wish me luck.
What to do? I'm going to downgrade my position back to intern and resume classes this fall. I'm two or three classes away from a degree in math. I'd like to finish that up and complete the paperwork for my computer science degree. Also, I plan on taking a bunch of undergraduate courses in psychology.
Psychology has been a field I've kept in the back of my mind for the last year and a half after taking psych 101 and social psych. Various conversations recently with Heidi and exploration of my own personality tell me I'm potentially entering the wrong field with computer science. I rock at it, but I'm starting to think the reason I enjoy it so much is simply for the abstract problem solving it requires to become proficient at it. The actual application of the education is drearily boring and research in this field requires a Ph.D. I think research might be fun, but I'm not 100% sure it would be satisfying.
For years people have told me I have a sense of wisdom beyond my age and an emotional capacity that can be mystifying. Maybe I should be pursuing something that let's me engage in the humanizing aspects of society that I thrive on in my personal life. This is going to require some personal exploration and some coursework to see if this might be for me. All I know is that planning this out and making it work has been the happiest I've felt about the short-range future of my work oriented life in a while. Wish me luck.