Liquid Nonsense

Do you ever notice little behavioral trends you get into under certain situations? I'm generally pretty good at identifying mine and I know I'm about to do something silly when I recognize certain things cropping up.

For instance, there's only one set of circumstances where I became self-conscious. I don't mind making displays in public, I had a really nasty mock-brakeup with Mika years ago in the heart of six flags, I play DDR in front of coworkers, I wear a kilt in public, I've been to fetish proms and other things most people won't due for any number of reasons. The only time I'm really self-conscious is when I feel like I've got something to lose. Also generally true to form, "something" is really "someone."

I don't feel bad about being self-conscious from time to time because I think it's part of what makes me adaptable. It leads to periods of introspection and revaluation where I can step back for a second and make sure things are on track. One of these days I'm going to need to branch out and make some more friends in the areas that I'm interested in. I wished I had more friends that had some of the same personal expansion goals that I have.

Either way, thank you Phil for being supportive and patient with me.