Liquid Nonsense

I hate feeling fragile. Some days I seem to manage to put myself into a funk where I lose my perspective and feel irrational. It's this state of mind that makes me feel like every time I open my mouth I'm going to just say something really, really dumb or something ludicrous. Luckily my compatriots and boyfriend are understanding. The only thing I hate worse than feeling fragile is feeling like a burden.

Several years ago I promised myself that I would always hold my head up high regardless of how I felt. Even when I know I'm feeling wonky and out of it I know that I'm still a strong person. I don't buckle under pressure, and I have the wherewithal to see things through. Needless to say, I'm looking forward to a hug later today.



In another really interesting note, my dad noticed that I was watching Brokeback Mountain on Saturday night. What's neat about my dad is that he's originally from Tennessee and long ago was in horse training. We even used to have a horse back in Colorado. He's sold western ware stuff for the last 30+ something years. For all intents and purposes, my dad is a cowboy. What struck me as amazing was last night he actually approached me with a bunch of questions about the movie. The questions ranged from "Were they really gay?" to "How accurately did they show the lifestyle?". He was genuinely interested in the movie and my opinions on it. Both my parents have always been supportive of my being gay, but this actually made me somewhat proud of him. My dad, the liberal cowboy.